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If I Died ...

If i died...........

Mom...
If i havent told you enough
I love you mom
If i havent shown you as much
I love you mom
I might have told you today
But i might forget tomorrow
To express my love for you
I am grateful to have a mother as great as you
I might not know your struggles as well as you went through them
And i m sorry if i couldnot take them away
But i want to see you happy mom
If i die be happy mom.
Live in the moment
Let go of the past 
Let go of your pain
Be happy mom
Gain a little weight 
Spend on yourself
Keep being the kind hearted soul
Keep on taking care of the unloved
Dont worry anymore about me
You have given up yourself for us
And no "thank you" will be ever enough for the life you have given to us
There is so much to say to you mom
Keep making jokes with me.
I will be smiling with your smile
Be happy mom.

Dad....
Dad i know i have been too often rude
You pampered me so much dad
I know i have been a rude one 
But i love you dad
There is no despite when i think now
Its just you and me dad
No complaints no regrets 
I love you dad.
I m sorry if i failed to make you proud.
Take care of yourself dad.
Dont go climbing the ladders of the water tank
Dont do such stupid risky stuffs
I get scared.
Mom loves you too.
Dad i love you
Please be happy 
Please take care.
I love you


Di/Reshma
I just struggled whether to write "Di"
Or just "Reshma"
you are my sister but more
You have given me more than any normal sister
You have struggled at that time when you should have enjoyed life
So you could give us a comforting life
You have shown me what brave is
I express it too less
I love you a lot
You mean a lot to me
You are not just my sister 
But my guardian angel
Live your life
Sorry if i couldnt help you when you needed
Sorry if i wasnt there when you needed.
This is life
Live your moment
Do what you want
Dont hesitate.
Dont be somewhere where you are not respected
Life is  beautiful.
Take care of mom and dad
And yourself
I love you


I have so much more to say to my other family: my dogs, my cats and my friends. I love you all . I am sorry if i ever hurt you but i love you.
Take care of your dear ones. Keep smiling . Live your moments. 

To the world.....
I wish this world becomes a better place for everyone. Every living being have equal right to live on this earth so i wish humans acknowledged this fact. I wish for more humanity among us. I wish for peace.


Lots of love to everyone
-Kushma Thapa

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