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If I Died ...

If i died...........
Mom... If i havent told you enough I love you mom If i havent shown you as much I love you mom I might have told you today But i might forget tomorrow To express my love for you I am grateful to have a mother as great as you I might not know your struggles as well as you went through them And i m sorry if i couldnot take them away But i want to see you happy mom If i die be happy mom. Live in the moment Let go of the past  Let go of your pain Be happy mom Gain a little weight  Spend on yourself Keep being the kind hearted soul Keep on taking care of the unloved Dont worry anymore about me You have given up yourself for us And no "thank you" will be ever enough for the life you have given to us There is so much to say to you mom Keep making jokes with me. I will be smiling with your smile Be happy mom.
Dad.... Dad i know i have been too often rude You pampered me so much dad I know i have been a rude one  But i love you dad There is no despite when i think now Its just you and me dad No com…

Dec 21 -2014

Today morning i was thinking about the purpose of our life. I was convinced we are born so we can help somebody else.  The day passed like any other day and i was going back home with two of my friends. On our way from putalisadak to bagbazar suddenly the world stopped for us. We heard a house rumble down. My first instinct was to run. But i paused. I wasn't paralyzed but i just couldn't put myself to run. It was an adrenaline rush only with no movement. I knew i wasn't as near as where the noise came from but i also knew i wasn't in a safe distance. I dared myself to look behind me and saw the rubble falling. And when i looked ahead of me i saw my two friends running. It all happened in a matter of few seconds but in that moment i realized how much can happen in one single second. It was as if time had stopped.  Only few steps away we were from having those rumbles fall upon us and injure us or probably kill us.  It was just about few seconds.  And in this incident i…

God's mistake

Dear god  You made a mistake Am i supposed to be here? Cause i feel so out of place
Am i being stupid now Asking you inconsequential questions? But dear god you made a mistake. You gave me a sensitive heart. And i hurt for everything. I am trying to be strong  But i feel so out of place So it hurts too much.
There are so many problems to be addressed. But i am just lazy today. Fighting you today Because i feel so passion less I have got no talent on me.
I feel alone amongst my dears They only know the words But i cant feel them care. Because i am sick of words. God i didn't ask for words.

At the end its just you and me My shallow heart and you Don't let me hurt anyone. I feel i am breaking  I cannot do this anymore. Am i not your child ? So wont you hold me as i cry? Wont you tell me i am strong? That i am being stupid right now, wont you?
All i ask for is a warm smile. But my mother gives it to me everyday And i just snapped at her My sister just called And i hung up on her …


It could be anyone But don't want it to be me Walking that road again The chill scares me I wanna walk on the sun You be shining on me like the sun Could you be my sunshine?
I am scared ; alike a broken glass But how do you do it? Putting me together.  Healing my pieces. Could you be my indissoluble light?
And you tell me about your plans And make me wonder where i fit? Feels like i am trying to spill your cup I fight to tell you how i feel I talk to you in my mirror But i see you in your wonder world. Are your dreams quixotic or feasible?
I look deep into your eyes I hear your voice and read your words And i fail to say it to you "Honey where do i fit? Nowhere.  So i cant do this.... Anymore... I cant see myself in dark again You came too soon"
Could have been the perfect one But somehow i don't fit in your plan And you came too soon But i still wish that you were mine Wish i could keep you as my sunshine.
You could have been my shining light Where do i fit in your…