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Reality we call life

When you start depending on people you become a leech. A nuisance to other while unsurvivable without other.



I always held my upfront loud nature as a detrimental reality but today I know, what I am is at least out as a reality to everyone and I have no shocking sides that'll shock or hurt anyone. I don't lie coz I can't shut my routine.

Sometimes you don't need help but it's a good feeling if someone offers.

Last but not the least:
Your fears and all your insecurities will haunt you.  This world, this universe conspires to make your fear a reality.

Some soul touch you and Some lessons you learn. Bitter. Sweet. Sour. But you learn.
They say Trust no one because even your shadow betrays. It's one of those days when you realize the meaning of such heavy sentence.

And if it's same at the end, I would rather hurt for someone I seek rather than the other way around.
I am happy as I am.
And sometimes the reasons are not enough to know why you are living.



You cannot tell somebody their fear is unreal or stupid when you have your own. 

Every time I question the existence of a deep feeling towards the other I close my eyes. I see you. That's how I know its possible to feel such great attachment and feeling towards someone that is not the person them-self. Otherwise everything and everyone around makes me feel otherwise. 

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