Insight through Words

And slowly now that you are slipping away May be i will recall our moments of laughter And years from now i will talk of us Our adventures together Our discovery of friendship in each other I Might as well be shedding few tears as i recall then, Of friendship so old that was broken With the calls that were made lesser With the exchange of fewer handshakes While blaming our busy life A friendship that broke apart I will call you today just like i did yesterday I will complain about you not calling me back Out of no desperation, but desire To keep my friend aside Even in years to come To recall together the journey afar But slowly i might stop So my dear friend Are we what we are? So wont you help us be What we were always supposed to be Dont forget me today Keep me in your heart even tomorrow Lets bitch about our failures Lets celebrate our success For lets keep afresh the friendship  For friends are forever

For a long time i have been reading post and listening to people talk on vehicles, chiya pasals(cafes) and i have been taking in their thoughts and opinions. I have been pensive myself over the current crisis of our country Nepal. What could be the solution to come out of this? I have been thinking.  Requesting India or china to open the borders? Is that a permanent solution?  Why has India the power to trouble our life?  China's prime minister stated he will provide all the help he can. Will he? Even if he does so without any selfish motive is that a permanent solution?  Aja usle help garla, wa india le nai nakabandhi khulla garla ra hami hamro so called "normal life" ma ramaula. Tara kahile samma? Its all some temporary and fully parasitic dependency solution. What our government should do is generate electricity. Yedi hami sanga lagani chaina vane investors leraune.  Sano bela ma trolly bus, dad ko rajhdoot bike ani mero bicycle bahek aru...

Lately I haven't been a morning person. Well who am i kidding i have never been a morning person. Anyways, today i had to visit a temple nearby because my mom wanted me to. So in my own time i went there. I organized my puja thali. And when i was doing so I noticed a little girl who was looking at what i was doing fascinatingly. There was this goat as well who was also fascinated by some flowers and a raddish i had in my thali.  I started doing my puja, fully aware the goat was eyeing my puja thali.  In our culture we first offer puja to lord ganesh. Only then we offer puja to other gods. After doing the same, offering my puja to lord ganesh,i went inside the main temple of Bhairav. She tagged along and later i realized so did the goat.  The goat was disturbing  in a cute way. And the lil girl forcefully offered her help by holiding my thali for me. While i was kneeling down and doing my worship, she was making offerings from the thali herself.  And our b...

Lately so much is going on inside my mind. I am having such an unsatiated quest. I want to know about the  beginning/start, the hows and the whys in between, the ending if any. I want to know not only what everybody knows, i want to go deeper and know that's not known to many. Like for example knowledge of the start, why  , how  of the World war or  of the glasses and their recycling. So where did this sudden curiosity come from? It couldn't have started only now to uproar abruptly, Could it? I believe its a side everyone has , just probably hidden, if not out on open, in need of that trigger. And any trigger could possible put it into hiding again.  A hungry  always finds a way to assuage his hunger!! Not always. Sometimes its the situation and some times the boundaries which we don't want to risk fighting in the conquest of satiating our hunger. As a kid i had wanted to  read novels for the sake of knowing what it is like to be occupied by som...

Could i get a day like yesterday? He comes in white tshirt And gives me a smile I melt right there  but fake a bold smile We pass through the streets  And eat our breakfast Do the grocery shopping We Buy some wine He stares into my eyes While i dive into his The smile he gives Puts me through chills We talk of movies And some paradox He smokes some weed  I try one two puff or three Could i get a day like yesterday Enamored by my sunshine's ray Could i get another day Where its just him and me Could i get another day   Embraced in his arms Could i get another day Where its just him and me And could i get another day clasped in his warm embrace

I express it all in my unspoken words to you But you never read them, I express it all through my eyes  Do you ever see?  If you could break through this wall That i hide under, If only i could break the wall you take cover under, May be i could see the words you havent said, Or may be i would know i have been a flattered fool May be , and may be you will see you make me crazy So many things are unsaid between you and me, But All i want is to know that you love me, I wouldnt know how you spent 7 days of your week And it all wouldnt matter if at the end,  its me you seek Boozing with your pals, bossing around, charming some clients At the end in my arms, if its where you wana be. Yeah i wouldnt dig to know where you have been Wouldnt give much thought on why you were up untill the morning But only if i knew whom you seek If only i knew its only me you are seeing In this game of if, i am not sure whether you are bluffing Having...

I m yours , to love I m yours not, to torment I m yours to embrace, to calm me down I m yours not, to ignore as you please I m yours as your pillow while you sleep on my lap I m yours not, as just another lover  I m yours to show me your love I m yours to love every side of you I m yours to stand beside you I m yours in your struggle, sorrow and endeavor I m yours in your dream, your reality I m yours if you love me And I m yours only if you want me