Insight through Words

Lately I haven't been a morning person. Well who am i kidding i have never been a morning person. Anyways, today i had to visit a temple nearby because my mom wanted me to. So in my own time i went there. I organized my puja thali. And when i was doing so I noticed a little girl who was looking at what i was doing fascinatingly. There was this goat as well who was also fascinated by some flowers and a raddish i had in my thali.  I started doing my puja, fully aware the goat was eyeing my puja thali.  In our culture we first offer puja to lord ganesh. Only then we offer puja to other gods. After doing the same, offering my puja to lord ganesh,i went inside the main temple of Bhairav. She tagged along and later i realized so did the goat.  The goat was disturbing  in a cute way. And the lil girl forcefully offered her help by holiding my thali for me. While i was kneeling down and doing my worship, she was making offerings from the thali herself.  And our b...

Lately so much is going on inside my mind. I am having such an unsatiated quest. I want to know about the  beginning/start, the hows and the whys in between, the ending if any. I want to know not only what everybody knows, i want to go deeper and know that's not known to many. Like for example knowledge of the start, why  , how  of the World war or  of the glasses and their recycling. So where did this sudden curiosity come from? It couldn't have started only now to uproar abruptly, Could it? I believe its a side everyone has , just probably hidden, if not out on open, in need of that trigger. And any trigger could possible put it into hiding again.  A hungry  always finds a way to assuage his hunger!! Not always. Sometimes its the situation and some times the boundaries which we don't want to risk fighting in the conquest of satiating our hunger. As a kid i had wanted to  read novels for the sake of knowing what it is like to be occupied by som...

Could i get a day like yesterday? He comes in white tshirt And gives me a smile I melt right there  but fake a bold smile We pass through the streets  And eat our breakfast Do the grocery shopping We Buy some wine He stares into my eyes While i dive into his The smile he gives Puts me through chills We talk of movies And some paradox He smokes some weed  I try one two puff or three Could i get a day like yesterday Enamored by my sunshine's ray Could i get another day Where its just him and me Could i get another day   Embraced in his arms Could i get another day Where its just him and me And could i get another day clasped in his warm embrace

I express it all in my unspoken words to you But you never read them, I express it all through my eyes  Do you ever see?  If you could break through this wall That i hide under, If only i could break the wall you take cover under, May be i could see the words you havent said, Or may be i would know i have been a flattered fool May be , and may be you will see you make me crazy So many things are unsaid between you and me, But All i want is to know that you love me, I wouldnt know how you spent 7 days of your week And it all wouldnt matter if at the end,  its me you seek Boozing with your pals, bossing around, charming some clients At the end in my arms, if its where you wana be. Yeah i wouldnt dig to know where you have been Wouldnt give much thought on why you were up untill the morning But only if i knew whom you seek If only i knew its only me you are seeing In this game of if, i am not sure whether you are bluffing Having...

I m yours , to love I m yours not, to torment I m yours to embrace, to calm me down I m yours not, to ignore as you please I m yours as your pillow while you sleep on my lap I m yours not, as just another lover  I m yours to show me your love I m yours to love every side of you I m yours to stand beside you I m yours in your struggle, sorrow and endeavor I m yours in your dream, your reality I m yours if you love me And I m yours only if you want me

Out of my reach  And out of my hands So close yet so far So different and unfamiliar Yet not a stranger Because you are so much of a mystery And because i havent seen one like you  before The way you see life and the way you handle life And your determination and hardwork You talk about looking at the big picture But the little things you do arrests me And All the memories you have made Without me And all the people who know you better than me I envy Alike the rainbow after the deluge You are beautiful Alike the smokes from the puffs of your cigarette You disappear But alike a moth enamored by the fire So intriguing to me is the person that you are

I want to spread my arms As wide as i can Close my  eyes  Shut everything off And let myself go Fall so deep And as i fall I want to fly  As high as i can go Live my dream Feel the excitement of flying No more as a dream No more so real yet so dreamy feel The clear blue sky above me And oh so far the land is I rest then upon the green grass ground See the beautiful white clouds Like a hot air balloon In the sky I see the beautiful mountains Oh so beautiful they are As i am flying  Only my eyes and memories have them captured My eyes open I am in my bed But i cant let go of my dream So i wana spread my arms As wide as i can Shut my eyes off And let myself go Fall deep  Fall so deep  And as i almost touch the ground I will find my wings....